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Larry Hilburger.

Self-taught oil painter, working since the late 1970s.

Larry Hilburger on the steps of Buffalo City Hall
Larry Hilburger, Buffalo City Hall, 2019.
300+
Paintings
40+
Years
Oil
On canvas

Larry was born in Buffalo, NY in 1954. He took basic art at Cleveland Hill High School, where he enjoyed watercolor in particular, and graduated in 1972. After high school, painting went on hold while he played drums in different bands.

Eventually he sold his drum set to get a car so he could get to work. He had already painted once, on a canvas his sister Pam had started (Material Expansion, 1978), with her leftover paint still underneath. Years later, needing a creative outlet, he found his brother Rick’s brushes and oil paints down in his parents’ basement on South Huxley. The night before he started painting, he dreamed of “blueish creatures flying by a body of water near some ancient ruins,” and worked the dream into his first complete painting, Prehistoric Nightmare. He calls it “the painting that really inspired every painting in the future.”

Over four decades later he has produced more than three hundred works. He paints without formal training, guided by curiosity, instinct, and perseverance. He describes the work as abstract landscapes, or even dreamscapes, and a heavy dose of geometrics.

He paints today from his home in Angola, NY, five minutes down the road from Bennett Beach on Lake Erie.

With the work

Larry, with the work.

Larry (left) with his brother Mark in 1991, paintings hung around them
Larry (left) with younger brother Mark, 1991.
Larry Hilburger at his Imaginations solo exhibition, Adams Art Gallery, Dunkirk NY, 1993
At his solo show Imaginations, Adams Art Gallery, Dunkirk, NY, 1993.
Larry standing next to Forever Blowing Bubbles, propped on his upside-down-stool easel
Larry posing with Forever Blowing Bubbles at his work station, 2003.
Larry doing touch-up work on Forever Blowing Bubbles in 2019, almost three decades after he painted it
Touching up Forever Blowing Bubbles, July 2019.
Read on for the longer story His life in photographs · Gallery letters · Still painting

Throughout the years

Larry, through his life.

Larry as a toddler with his parents Edwin and Rosa at Point Breeze beach, 1957
Point Breeze beach, with his parents Edwin and Rosa, 1957.

Childhood · 1954–1968

The early years.

Hilburger family portrait: Edwin, Rosa, and the kids
Family portrait, ~1960.

Larry grew up in a large Buffalo family that spent its summers outdoors. The Hilburgers rented cabins at Point Breeze on Lake Erie for a week at a time, and visited cousins who lived within walking distance. Yearly family vacations took them most often to Allegany State Park, where on one hike they startled a black bear that turned and chased them back through the woods. Other trips took them to Long Beach in Ontario, the Adirondacks, the Thousand Islands, Lake Huron, the Catskills, the 1964 New York World’s Fair, Florida, and one trip across the Atlantic to England.

Larry as a smiling toddler in overalls
Toddler.
Larry with his siblings on a picnic table at Point Breeze
Picnic table at Point Breeze, with siblings.
The family at a fort with colonial reenactors
At a fort with reenactors, ~1957.

Before they settled on Manhattan Avenue in Buffalo, the family rented a place a block over on Marigold Street, from friends. They bought the Manhattan house when Larry was around four or five, and later moved to South Huxley, the family home for the rest of his childhood.

Marginalia · the rats under the slab

Around seven or eight, on Manhattan, Larry told his parents he was going to a friend’s house. That was all they knew. He and Larry Sharp, who lived a few houses down a dead-end street, walked down to Central Park Plaza. Plaza on the left, a construction site with a field by the railroad tracks on the right. They crawled through some big pipes, then found a huge slab of cement with a crawl space under it (the ground wasn’t level). Larry shimmied in first, lying flat to fit; his friend followed. They went farther and farther in. It was getting dark when he heard the squealing and realized it was a family of rats: babies and parents. He turned and shouted to move. His friend wasn’t moving fast enough; eventually they did get out, took a minute or two. Scared him good.

He never crawled under another cement thing. But they did still play on the railroad tracks, flattening pennies, without his parents knowing.

When the family lived on Manhattan Avenue, he helped his older brother Derek with the Buffalo Evening News paper route, and Derek would buy him a Pepsi and a bag of chips at one of the corner stores afterward. There were a lot of corner stores back then: glass-bottle Pepsi out of a machine for about a dime, chips for ten cents, a full candy bar for a nickel, a postage stamp for four cents, the first-class rate from August 1958 until January 1963. Money, Larry says, was worth something. He collected stamps because his father did (Edwin had gotten Mike going on it first), and traded the kid cards the stores sold: spook cards with monsters, cowboys (Davy Crockett, Jesse James, Billy the Kid), music stars (Fabian, Bobby Darin, Paul Anka), and Beatles cards in 1963–64, when the stores were full of Fab Four stuff.

Larry in Ms. Allen's 4th grade class, around 1965
Ms. Allen’s 4th grade, 1964.
Larry in Ms. Allen's 4th grade class, around 1965
Ms. Allen’s 4th grade, 1964.
Larry's school portrait, around age 10, 1965
School portrait, 1965.

The family went to church together on Sundays in the early years; in later years they went mostly just for Easter and Christmas. A lot of the group photos from this time come from those occasions, when everyone was dressed up.

Larry in the yard with his siblings, all dressed up. Larry, front.
All dressed up, ~1959.
Mike, Rick, Derek, Pam, and Larry in the snow, 1958
Siblings in the snow, 1958.
The siblings dressed for Easter, color portrait
Easter, ~1962.
A family / cousin gathering outside
Family gathering, ~1962.
The siblings dressed for Easter, mid-1960s, with Larry in suit and sunglasses (a.k.a. Mr. Shades on Sunday)
Easter (a.k.a. Mr. Shades on Sunday), ~1965.
Larry and his family with his grandmothers at the South Huxley house, 1965
With the grandmothers, South Huxley, 1965.

He has fond memories of his parents taking the kids to the Zoo, Akron Park, Niagara Falls, Crystal Beach (the Lake Erie amusement park reachable by ferry from Buffalo, closed in 1989 after a century of operation), Sherkston Beach with the quarry, Beaver Island State Park, Fantasy Island, and watching his dad fish in the Niagara River in the early evenings.

Larry at the New York World's Fair with his parents Edwin and Rosa and siblings, 1964
World’s Fair, New York City, 1964.
Family in front of a modern building with a fountain at the New York World's Fair
By a fountain at the Fair, ~1964.
The siblings on the sand at Long Beach, Canada, 1965
Long Beach, Canada, 1965.
Mark, Val, Rosa, and Larry at Niagara Falls
Niagara Falls, ~1965.
Larry in a winter coat holding an orange tabby cat in the snow, 1966
With a cat, 1966.
The South Huxley family house in 1966, exterior
The South Huxley house, 1966 — the family home for the rest of his childhood.

On May 1, 1967, his oldest brother Michael J. Hilburger was killed in Vietnam at twenty-one. Larry was twelve. He came home from Cleveland Hill Elementary that day, opened the door, and saw his father with a strange look on his face. Larry asked if the tropical fish had died. His father said no, it was much worse, and told him, “Mike is dead.” Larry described it as fight or flight. He ran to the basement, his father followed, and they held each other and cried. The family was devastated.

Their mother Rosa was heartbroken. Canada was just over the Peace Bridge from Buffalo, a few miles down the road, and Mike could have crossed and joined the draft dodgers, but Rosa had encouraged him to do what was his duty, eight months before the Tet Offensive would turn American public opinion against the war. She blamed herself for the rest of her life. Larry remembers hearing her sob for years afterward, sometimes while folding laundry, sometimes alone in her room.

Marginalia · Mike’s life in photographs

Mike, before

Rosa holding baby Mike in the yard
Rosa with baby Mike, ~1946.
Mike as a toddler in a winter coat by the family car
Toddler, ~1947.
Mike on his tricycle in the family kitchen, holding a teddy bear
On his tricycle in the kitchen, 1949.
Mike and Rick at a Boy Scout meeting
Mike and Rick at a Scout meeting, January 1956.
Mike and Rick saluting in their Scout uniforms
Mike and Rick saluting, ~1956.
Mike with his pigeons in the basement
With his pigeons in the basement, November 1958.
Mike posing next to the silver aluminum Christmas tree
Mike by the silver tree, ~1963.
Mike eating dinner with younger brother Mark
Mike with younger brother Mark, ~1964.
Mike at the kitchen table
Mike at the kitchen table, ~1964.
Mike in a tweed jacket and tie on the family lawn
Mike in a tweed jacket, ~1965.
Edwin, Mike in Army uniform, and Rosa by the Christmas tree
Mike with Edwin and Rosa at Christmas, ~1965.
Family hangout with guitars and music at the South Huxley house
Family hangout with guitars, South Huxley, ~1965.

Mike, soldier

Mike in a jacket and tie outdoors
Before deployment, ~1965.
Mike's official Army portrait, holding a card with his name
Army portrait, ~1965.
Mike in his Army barracks
In the barracks, ~1965.
Mike in fatigues at the barracks, HILBURGER name patch visible
Fatigues, “HILBURGER” name patch, ~1965.
Mike home on leave in U.S. Army dress uniform, March 1966
Home on leave, dress uniform, March 1966.
Family gathered around Mike on his Army leave
Family gathered around Mike on leave, March 1966.

After

Rosa, Maryann (Mike's wife), and Dawn (Val's daughter) at a Scrabble game
Rosa and Maryann (Mike’s wife) at Scrabble, with Dawn (Val’s daughter), ~1990s.

In the news

Newspaper clipping: Hilburger Reports For Combat Training
“Hilburger Reports For Combat Training,” Buffalo paper, 1965.
Newspaper clipping: Living Hell, Mike's letter home from Vietnam
“Living Hell.” Mike’s letter home, submitted by Rosa to the Buffalo Evening News’s Vietnam Letters section and published April 4, 1967. The letter described the Feb 23 ambush during Operation Junction City.
Newspaper clipping: Medals of Soldier Killed in Vietnam Given to Wife
“Medals of Soldier Killed in Vietnam Given to Wife,” 1967.
Newspaper clipping: Mike Hilburger funeral notice
Funeral notice, 1967.
Marginalia · the Vietnam Letters section

The framing the Buffalo Evening News printed above its Vietnam Letters series, in Mike’s own paper:

Behind the headlines of the day’s major battles in Vietnam is the untold story of the day-to-day life of the hundreds of men from Western New York. Here, in their own words, is that story, to help bridge the gap in time, miles and experiences from jungles, mountains and danger of Vietnam to the prosperous, peaceful United States. The News invites you to submit excerpts from the letters you receive from husband, son or friend in Vietnam with a picture of the writer. Pictures will be returned upon request. Address all correspondence to The Buffalo Evening News c/o Vietnam Letters, Buffalo, N.Y., 14240.

Rosa most likely submitted Mike’s letter to the paper.

Around the same time, Rosa survived a near-fatal car accident: a tracheotomy, broken ribs that damaged her lungs. The children, having just lost Mike, were terrified of losing her too. Years later she would tell them what she remembered most from that time: their faces, the fear on them, and how she tried to smile through the tubes and everything, holding their hands.

Rosa's accident

Rosa's wrecked car in the impound lot
The Hilburger car, ~1967.
The Hilburger car in the impound lot, marked ‘HILBURGER CAR’
Marked “Hilburger car” in pen.
Rosa's wrecked car, side view
Side view.
Rosa's wrecked car, rear view
Rear view.
The other car involved
The other car.

Soon after, Larry was given a snare drum, and not long after that a full kit.

Teen years

Out into the world.1969–1972

He attended Cleveland Hill High School, swam on the swim team, and played drums in a band called Red Witch (with George Litz on guitar) that performed at their school dance. Larry went to New York City in June 1972 to receive a Guru’s “so-called” Knowledge; then in November of that year, at eighteen, he travelled to India with his sister Pam and his brother Derek, where they spent nearly a month with the followers of Guru Maharaj Ji.

Music · 1969–1972

He loved music, kept a massive record collection, and went to many rock concerts over the years; his first was Led Zeppelin’s October 30, 1969 show at Kleinhans Music Hall, the band’s sold-out Buffalo debut. Larry was fifteen. He graduated from Cleveland Hill in June 1972.

“I was big with the records.”

Larry, on the family he grew up in:

I lived in an artistic, musical and creative family. My older brother Rick wrote songs, played guitar, sang, recorded music, and oil paints, making beautiful works of art. My other older brother Derek played keyboards/organ in a popular band called the Magic Ring that opened for many top-notch rock groups, too many to mention. The rest of the family has talent too.

Among the headliners Magic Ring opened for: Deep Purple, Cactus, Alice Cooper, Canned Heat, Fleetwood Mac, Uriah Heep, and The Doors after Jim Morrison’s death in July 1971.

Magic Ring promotional photo, 1971: the five-piece band beneath a tree, Derek Hilburger standing back-right
Magic Ring promo, 1971. Five Ring Management.
Larry’s older brother Derek Hilburger, Magic Ring keyboardist, 1971
Derek, 1971.
Buffalo Evening News feature from October 2, 1971: ‘Magic Ring’ Sees Albums, Concerts In Its Future, by Dale Anderson
“‘Magic Ring’ Sees Albums, Concerts In Its Future,” Buffalo Evening News, October 2, 1971. By Dale Anderson.
A family at a boat dock, woman in a floral dress with two kids
At a boat dock, ~1969.
Larry with his siblings sitting on a couch
Siblings on the couch, ~1969.
The South Huxley house buried in snow
South Huxley in deep snow, April 1971.
Mark, Larry, and Rick in the front yard
Mark, Larry, and Rick in the yard, July 1971.
Larry at Long Beach, Canada, 1971
Long Beach, Canada, 1971.
Larry and family by a lake at Allegany State Park, 1972
Allegany State Park, 1972.
Pam, Derek, and Larry on a city street, April 1972
With Pam and Derek, April 1972.
Larry on the tree-lined driveway leading into Prem Nagar, the Divine Light Mission compound in India, 1972
Driveway into Prem Nagar, India, 1972.
Larry kneeling at the edge of a river — a tributary of the Ganges — in India, 1972
A tributary of the Ganges, India, 1972.
Larry by a banyan tree in India, 1972
By a banyan tree, India, 1972.
Larry with his sister Pam on the way to the Indian temples, 1972
With sister Pam, on the way to the Indian temples, 1972.

Young adult

On his own.1972–1989

After India, he moved often over the next two decades: an apartment near Buffalo State College in 1973 (jam sessions with friends, a lot of partying, a landlord on his case, and eventually an ant infestation that drove him out), then on Manhattan Avenue through 1974 (renting from his parents); Denver, Colorado in 1975 with his brother Derek; and a summer at Westhampton Beach, NY with his sister Pam in 1976. In 1977 he lived in Houston, Texas with friends Rocky, Bob, and Don; that same year the four drove home together, taking the long way through the Great Smoky Mountains.

Rosa and Edwin Hilburger outside the Houston Astrodome, November 1973
Rosa and Edwin at the Houston Astrodome, November 1973.
Rosa and Edwin Hilburger standing together in the yard
Rosa and Edwin in the yard.

Three songs, 1974

Recorded in 1974 with friends Herbie, Bob, and Jack in an early band that hadn’t yet given itself a name, Larry on drums and synthesizer on Fool’s Love. The four had a great time playing together, even if just for a short stretch before Larry’s car accident later that year.

Audio restoration in progress.

Song for George

Audio coming

Four Winds Blow

Audio coming

Fool’s Love

Audio coming

Larry at the Atlantic Ocean, Westhampton Beach, 1976
Westhampton Beach, 1976.
Larry near the Smoky Mountains, Tennessee, 1977
Smoky Mountains, Tennessee, 1977.
Larry near the Smoky Mountains, Tennessee, 1977
Smoky Mountains, Tennessee, 1977.
Larry on Easter with a cowboy hat, beer and cigar at the family home, 1978
Easter Sunday, 1978.
Michelle (Mike's daughter) holding baby Kyle (Pam's son)
Michelle, Mike’s daughter, with baby Kyle, January 1978.
Larry with his brother Mark in winter, 1978
With his brother Mark, winter 1978.
Larry at dinner with Tim and Lisa Williams
Dinner with Tim and Lisa Williams, 1979.
Larry at the Cinderella Castle, Walt Disney World
Walt Disney World, 1979.
Larry with a cat and a guinea pig at the family home in South Huxley, Cheektowaga, 1979
With a cat and guinea pig, South Huxley, 1979.
Group of friends and family on a wooden overlook with dogs
On an overlook with dogs, ~1980.
Larry at Kinzua Dam, Pennsylvania, 1980
Kinzua Dam, Pennsylvania, 1980.

Through most of the 1970s and into the early 1980s, Larry was a follower of Guru Maharaj Ji and the Divine Light Mission. He had received what the Mission called “the knowledge” on June 19, 1972, his mother’s birthday, on the second floor of a building in New York City. The Mission was midway through an extraordinary American boom: from roughly six US followers in 1971 to around fifty thousand by 1973.

Marginalia · the Knowledge session

Larry remembers a long indoctrination session: each attendee had to commit to a vow of devotion to Guru Maharaj Ji before the Knowledge would be revealed. Someone else in the session had to leave for the bathroom and was told not to come back if she did. The Mahatma (the guru’s helper) went to each person one by one, revealing the Knowledge and pressing his fingers very hard against their eyes to show them the light. Maybe twenty people in the group that night; Larry didn’t count.

He was seventeen. In his own words: “I did have an experience, and I don’t mean to sound crass, but I can have an experience picking my nose.”

In November 1973 part of the family (Edwin, Rosa, Larry, Mark, and Val) travelled to Houston for Millennium ’73, the Astrodome event billed as the beginning of “a thousand years of peace” and coordinated by the Chicago Seven’s Rennie Davis as the Mission’s US vice-president. Derek travelled separately. Larry’s parents had been planning to receive the Knowledge themselves. At a pre-Knowledge session in Buffalo beforehand, attendees were asked to be willing to give something up for the master; when Rosa was asked to be willing to give up her children, she walked out. “I’m not going to give up my children for the guru.” The Mission, Larry later understood, specifically wanted the younger ones.

The mid-1970s were a hard stretch. In 1974, sometime after midnight on the 198 in Buffalo, a car accident in his beloved Dodge Challenger took the car, a relationship, and the band that had recorded those three songs together. He was partying a lot, increasingly conflicted about his devotion to the master.

Marginalia · the night of the crash

Larry’s girlfriend was in the passenger seat. She hit her head; blood was coming down her face, so Larry got out of the car and flagged down a passing car to get her to a hospital, where she recovered. The Challenger didn’t. Not long after that the relationship was over, and Larry had to sell his drum set to afford a working car for his job. The set was a professional kit (two bass drums, four tom toms, two floor toms, five cymbals), and selling it meant the band, too, was over.

Denver · 1975

Denver, he liked. In 1975 he took a door-to-door encyclopedia sales job that gave him his first wheels. He started on foot, walking the neighborhoods, looking for cars in driveways (no car meant no one home) and swingsets in yards (kids meant parents who might buy). After a month he was doing well enough to be promoted to field manager: his own crew, his own car. The work came with travel, week-long sales runs out to Arizona, Nebraska, South Dakota, New Mexico. He earned a top-sales award one month, a briefcase, and eventually a trip to Hawaii. Then the company shut down its Denver operation and moved out of state. The Hawaii trip got reassigned to one of the regional managers. Larry never made it.

Larry, on what following Guru Maharaj Ji was like:

Within the Guru’s talks and organization there was a constant guilt trip of “You are in your mind,” like it’s a bad thing. You’re not to think for yourself; thoughts and efforts need to go towards the Knowledge and the Perfect Master. I call that a mind fuck.

By the late 1970s the grip had loosened; Larry went to a few more satsangs in 1979 and 1980, but the premie feeling didn’t last. Looking back now, he considers it a cult and the experience brainwashing. He has said that the many years of being told to follow the Perfect Master’s Agya (instructions), of Satsang (talks and indoctrination), Service (selfless actions to help the cause), Meditation (which the Guru hijacked), and Darshan (being in the presence of the Perfect Master or Guru and kissing his feet) and not to think for yourself did some damage. The devotees, Larry has said, were being taken advantage of. Many gave everything to him, even houses and cars. Not to mention their minds.

Larry agrees with Lakeshore’s posts on the ex-premie page:

Then years later Prem Rawat’s revisionism or changes took place within the cult which I believed was essentially Rawat’s idea, ostensibly for reasons related to, well… relatability. Most western premies welcomed the changes because they were ashamed of the optics of being in a cult, e.g., Arti (devotional song), foot kissing the lord, the Guru’s outfit with a gold crown, the dancing and so on, and rightfully so. Especially the mala dancing.

What turned those otherwise welcomed changes into something despicable was the big fat lie that devotees were responsible for creating those optics, and not the one person, Prem Rawat, who was singularly responsible for instilling and promoting them for an entire decade: “I’m the Perfect Master,” “And when you sing Arti, mean it!!”

Divine Light Mission glossary

Satguru
True dispeller of darkness and revealer of light.
Perfect Master
English equivalent of Satguru. A Perfect Master is one who teaches the perfect Knowledge, the knowledge and love of God. Christ and Buddha were Perfect Masters in their own times.
Guru Maharaj Ji
Guru in Hindi means Teacher; Maharaj Ji means Great King. Disciples usually call him Guru Maharaj Ji, though his full title is Balyogeshwar Paramhans Satgurudev Shri Sant Ji Maharaj.
Balyogeshwar Paramhans Satgurudev Shri Sant Ji Maharaj
Balyogeshwar means Born Lord of Yogis. Paramhans means Highest Soul. Shri Sant Ji Maharaj indicates the present Guru Maharaj Ji.
Mahatma
In Hindi, Maha means Great and Atma means Soul. A Mahatma is a great soul empowered by Guru Maharaj Ji to reveal the Knowledge. An Apostle.
Knowledge
The heart of Guru Maharaj Ji’s teachings. In a Knowledge Session, a Mahatma reveals the four techniques of inner meditation, known as Divine Light, Divine Harmony, the Word, and Nectar. However, to know the techniques without having the Grace of the Perfect Master is “quite useless.”
Grace
The blessings of the Perfect Master. The power which allows one to practice meditation. “Knowledge without Grace is like a car without petrol,” says Guru Maharaj Ji.
Satsang
Literally, the company of truth. Satsangs are spiritual discourses about the Knowledge and in praise of the Perfect Master. To tell someone about Knowledge is called “giving Satsang.”
Service
Selfless actions performed out of love for the Perfect Master and compassion for the sufferings of humanity. The Mission taught that the first service any disciple of Guru Maharaj Ji has is to inform people that the Perfect Master is here, offering them the gift of eternal life.
Meditation
Concentration of mind. True meditation, the Mission taught, is meditation upon the endless source of energy which is within us all, and which underlies all Creation.
Darshan
Coming into the presence of the Perfect Master or a member of his Holy Family.
Ashram
Shelter. To live in Guru Maharaj Ji’s shelter. A place where disciples lived together in service of their Perfect Master.
Premie
Literally, a lover of God. One who has taken Guru Maharaj Ji’s teachings into his heart. A disciple.
Jai Satchitanand
A greeting between premies. Literally, “All victory to Truth, which is the consciousness of bliss.” Roughly, “I salute the True Self within you.”
Bolie Shri Satgurudev Maharaj Ki Jai!
All praise and honor to the Perfect Master!

From the Divine Light Mission’s own materials.

Larry talks about people being taken advantage of, and he wanted to help with the facts. He spent years collecting and preserving documentation and materials from his time as a premie, sharing them online with ex-premie communities under the name hilltop. He has been recognized on an ex-premie page chronicling former members’ experiences. He loves his family, and any anger he has is from what he sees as the forces that tore at it: war, greed, lies, manipulation, and people used as pawns in someone else’s game.

Before he stopped, Friday nights mostly meant Central and Depot in Brocton, NY, then back to the family house on South Huxley. He calls those the “Brocton years.” He stopped drinking in late 1982 or early 1983, after a fight with a friend, and went to work at Freezer Queen not long after. That same year, he and his father bought an eight-acre Christmas tree farm in Java Center, NY with a stocked pond (1982–1989).

Java Center and homes · 1982–1989

To stock the pond, Larry and Edwin drove out to a hatchery with a big trash can and came back with a hundred small rainbow trout. Later, the two of them fished those same trout back out together, and Rosa cleaned and cooked them. Larry thinks there’s a home video somewhere of his mother cleaning the fish.

He had met Jan in 1980. They moved in together in late 1983, the upstairs of a two-family house on the East Side of Buffalo (1983–1986); Jan’s grandmother lived below. He started oil painting there, working through his older brother Rick’s oil supplies left in the South Huxley basement. Rick is a painter too (see his work). In 1986 he bought a house on Garner Avenue, off Grant Street on the West Side of Buffalo (1986–1989), with a wood-burning fireplace, an art studio, a pool table, and a ping-pong table. The neighborhood had great restaurants and pizzerias.

Larry and Jan in a kitchen with floral wallpaper
With Jan, 1982.
Dawn (on Rosa's lap with a pumpkin), Rosa, Larry, Edwin, and Jan at Java Center with the mobile home in the background
At Java Center: Dawn, Rosa, Larry, Edwin, and Jan, ~1984.
The family at Long Beach, Canada: Larry, Edwin in a captain's hat, Rosa, Jan in sunglasses, and others, with rental cabins behind
Long Beach, Canada, 1984.

A brother who stayed

One of Larry's older brothers had received the Knowledge before Larry did and was a devotee throughout that era, and most likely even now. (Larry doesn't think the word devotee is still in use.) Larry has said of him: "He is a beautiful person, with love in his heart."

"I've got a lot to be thankful for, and things were getting better."

Buffalo · 1987

In 1987 Larry and Jan split up (they’re close friends today). Soon after, a friend named Bill Norick brought a woman named Diane over to the Garner house one evening. They all got along, and before the night was out Larry and Diane had exchanged numbers. The phone calls that followed went on for hours. Diane had a farm in Elma with her sons. They started dating; she had doubts (she had a houseful of sons to raise), but Larry didn’t mind. They got serious anyway.

The first paintings · 1978–1989

Material Expansion, 1978
Material Expansion 1978 · the first canvas

The painting practice began here. In 1978 he had painted once, on a canvas his sister Pam had started: Material Expansion, with her leftover paint still underneath. Seven years later, working through his brother Rick’s oil supplies left in the South Huxley basement, he completed Prehistoric Nightmare from a dream of “blueish creatures flying by a body of water near some ancient ruins.” He has called it the painting that really inspired every painting in the future. Most of the dreamscapes that followed came in a single year-long burst in 1986.

Prehistoric Nightmare, 1985
Prehistoric Nightmare 1985 · dreamscapes “The painting that really inspired every painting in the future.”

1986 · a year of dreamscapes

Eruption, 1986
Eruption1986
Circumstantial Energy, 1986
Circumstantial Energy1986
Instinctive Discipline, 1986
Instinctive Discipline1986
The Ancient Future, 1986
The Ancient Future1986
Moon Set, 1986
Moon Set1986
Plane Of Existence, 1986
Plane Of Existence1986

Westfield

Settled in.1989–2006

In 1989 Larry left Buffalo for a farm in Westfield, NY with Diane and her sons. He stayed seventeen years: work across the road at Sugar Hill Golf Course, and two daughters of his own born here. He has called this stretch the best of his life.

By 1989 Larry was ready to leave Buffalo. He and Diane talked one night about what they wanted in a place: ponds, beautiful surroundings. Larry had been listening to self-help tapes that told him to write down what he wanted, and he had. A week or two later, Diane called: her brother Dave was selling his property out in Westfield, NY. Larry drove out to look. Forty-five thousand dollars, a twenty-eight-acre grape farm, three ponds, an old farmhouse, a barn. Everything on the list. He sold the Garner house and the Java Center tree farm to fund the purchase, and the deal went through that year; later, a mobile home was added to the property. It was a timing thing: eight or nine months to coordinate the closings so the Westfield money landed when he needed it, with a good attorney helping string it all together. When the day came (late fall, almost early winter), friends pitched in to move him out. Roger had a moving company; he came with Rick Clark and Mark, and the four of them packed everything into the truck and drove it out to the farm together.

The four-man moving crew with beers, posed by a window: Roger, Rick Clark, Mark, and Larry
The moving crew, November 1989.
Larry on his Cub Cadet riding mower at the Westfield farm, early 1990s
On the Cub Cadet, Westfield, early 1990s.
The old wooden barn at the Westfield farm, by the pond, in late autumn
The barn by the pond, Westfield, 2000s.

He worked many jobs across those years: a pizza restaurant (“I made the best pizzas”), Chef Henry’s deli and door-to-door encyclopedia sales in Denver (1975), a furniture moving company in Houston, Westinghouse and Arcata Graphics in Cheektowaga, a pickle factory in Cheektowaga for a few days, foreman at Freezer Queen, delivery driver for U‑Need‑A Delivery, Sugar Hill Golf Course in Westfield (1992–2009), and a few other positions.

Marginalia · the pickle factory only got him for a few shifts

In Larry’s words:

I’d start second shift. They’d put me on this line, a conveyor with cucumbers going by, washed, sliced. Under that, another conveyor with glass jars. My job was to grab the cucumber sticks and stick them in the jars. Eight hours of that, and on our lunch break they’d shut the line down to clean it; sticky and sloppy from the cucumbers, seeds everywhere. Honest to god, just standing there, I’d swear I still saw things moving. I looked at the other workers and noticed they looked like zombies from doing this job. Some had been doing this for many years. I felt miserable, had a cold. Came back the next day, wasn’t into it. Did another shift. And then I couldn’t do it any more. So much for working at the pickle factory. When I left, I left smelling like a human pickle.

Sugar Hill · 1992

Sugar Hill Golf Course was a field when Larry moved to Westfield, across the road from his house near Lake Erie. It had once been a golf course called “The Vineyard,” and around 1992 Randy Trumpler bought it to bring it back to life. Larry walked over and asked if he could help. He helped Trumpler rebuild the course, then worked there for seventeen years through three owners: Trumpler, then the Delaneys, then Greg and Pat.

The Sugar Hill Golf Course sign
The sign.
The Sugar Hill clubhouse
The clubhouse.
Sugar Hill's third green with a red flag, Lake Erie visible through the trees behind
The third green, with Lake Erie behind.
A pond at Sugar Hill Golf Course
The pond.
Sunset over Sugar Hill Golf Course
Sunset.

Dad · 1991 & 1994

His daughters Christina and Kim were born in 1991 and 1994. The day Christina was born, he got to hold her first, in a rocking chair he still vividly remembers. Kim came out with a full head of thick, dark hair, which was the first thing he noticed. He calls this stretch the best of his life: the Westfield farm, two beautiful daughters, and work just across the road at Sugar Hill Golf Course. When asked about being a father, he comes back to the same word: fortunate.

Larry holding baby Christina outdoors, summer 1991
With baby Christina, 1991.
Newborn Kim in a knit white bonnet and sweater on a blue pillow, 1994
Newborn Kim, 1994.
Toddler Christina in a navy beret and pink coat smiling next to baby Kim in a stroller with a white bonnet and teal knit sweater, 1994
Christina with baby Kim, 1994.
Christina in a blue life vest leaping off a creek-side cliff into the water below, mid-jump, around 1996
Christina jumping, ~1996.
Christina (left, teal sweater) and Kim (right, Goofy T-shirt) smiling together, mid-1990s
Christina and Kim, ~1997.
Christina in a blue-striped swimsuit and Kim in a flowered dress in the backyard at Westfield, August 1998
Christina and Kim in the backyard, Westfield, 1998.
Kim and Christina sitting together on an arcade fire-truck ride at Chuck E. Cheese, early 2000s
Christina and Kim at Chuck E. Cheese, early 2000s.

Paintings · 1990–2006

The Westfield years coincided with a steady output. Forever Blowing Bubbles dates from this chapter (1991, the year Christina was born); it shows up in the photographs at the top of this page: propped on the upside-down stool he used as an easel, and again being touched up almost three decades later.

Forever Blowing Bubbles, 1991
Forever Blowing Bubbles 1991 · 24″ × 36″ · dreamscapes

Across the Westfield years

Inner Dimensions ~ The Meditator, 1990
Inner Dimensions ~ The Meditator1990
New Directions, 1991
New Directions1991
Somewhere Between Here And There, 1992
Somewhere Between Here And There1992
Rise Above It, 1994
Rise Above It1994
You And Your Intelligent Life, 1995
You And Your Intelligent Life1995
Flames Of Evil, 2001
Flames Of Evil2001
Larry driving a moving van across the country for his sister Pam
Driving a moving van across the country for Pam, with Mark, 1991. Larry: “I remember not wanting to leave you being just a baby.”
Larry at a parade with his sister Pam, 1991
At a parade with sister Pam, 1991.
Larry on a rooftop in New York City at a parade with his sister Pam, 1991
Rooftop at the NYC parade, with sister Pam, 1991.
Larry with his brother Mark under a willow tree, early 1990s
Under the willow tree, with brother Mark. Early 1990s.
Larry posing on a chopper motorcycle wearing a bandana
On the chopper.
Larry on a green hammock with a sleeping newborn Christina on his chest, 1991
Hammock nap, with baby Christina, 1991.
Larry holding baby Christina by a log fence in autumn, 1991
Fall, with baby Christina, 1991.
Larry in a striped polo holding baby Kim with Christina on his lap, 1994
With Christina and baby Kim, 1994.
Larry holding baby Kim with his sister Val, 1994
Holding baby Kim, with sister Val, 1994.
Christina and Kim in maroon velvet dresses with lace collars at a Brocton School Thanksgiving event, mid-1990s
Christina and Kim at Brocton School, Thanksgiving. Included at Larry’s request.
Larry's garden on the Westfield East Lake Road property
The Westfield garden, ~1995.
Close-up of the Westfield garden flower bed
Garden close‑up, ~1995.
The Westfield back yard: a circular flower bed with a small swan ornament, a blue spruce, and a pond in the background
The back yard, Westfield.
A Hilburger family gathering: eight adults in dressy clothes, a young boy in front holding two blue balloons
Hilburger family gathering, ~1990s.
Christina and Kim by one of the Westfield ponds
Christina and Kim at the pond, Westfield.
The family camping at Allegany State Park, August 1999, with a tent in the background, a fire pit in the foreground, and a dog in a blue jacket
Camping at Allegany State Park, August 1999.

From the archive.

Selected exhibitions

1993
Imaginations · Solo · Adams Art Gallery, Dunkirk, NY
1994
Biennial Art Show · Group · Octagon Gallery, Westfield, NY
1995
Wired · Group · Hallways Art Center, Buffalo, NY
1996
Biennial Art Show · Group · Patterson Library, Westfield, NY

Coursework

In 1987, two years into his oil practice, Larry took a summer art class at Buffalo State College. He made one collage there.

Larry Hilburger, Burial Grounds collage, 1987
Burial Grounds, collage, 1987.

From fellow artists.

Recent years

Still painting.

While formal showings became infrequent in the late 1990s, the painting continued. Three decades of weekly studio practice produced the bulk of the catalog: hundreds of works accumulated across studio and storage, sold occasionally, mostly kept. The body of work grew steadily through the 2000s and 2010s, outside public view.

Black & white geometrics · 2009–2011

Black And White Number 1, 2009
Number 12009
Black And White Squares, 2010
Squares2010
Black And White Five Pointed Stars, 2010
Five Pointed Stars2010
Black And White Six Pointed Stars, 2010
Six Pointed Stars2010
Black And White Eight Pointed Stars Number 1, 2011
Eight Pointed Stars2011
Black And White Triangles, 2011
Triangles2011

At 71, he is still painting. The catalog spans four decades and is still growing.

Recent work

Tribute, 2020
Tribute2020
Geo One, 2020
Geo One2020
Prayer Power, 2020
Prayer Power2020
Windows, 2021
Windows2021
Connected, 2021
Connected2021

His father Edwin had one piece of advice for him: stick to your guns. The painting, week after week, is what he has done with it. Some galleries passed on the work, some wanted originals Larry wasn’t ready to give up, and the painting kept going regardless. He paints for himself.

"It's a good feeling when there is a new blank canvas in front of me. I derive a lot of happiness from painting. More than ever, I want to paint positive and uplifting works of art. I aspire to create paintings that help make people feel good when looking at them."

Larry at Parkside Candy in Buffalo, 2022
Parkside Candy, Buffalo, 2022.

Outside the studio

A life off the canvas.

He sees his daughters and his grandson Nova Daniel whenever he can.

Larry throwing a peace sign at Niagara Falls, 2011
Peace sign at Niagara Falls, 2011.
Christina (left, purple hoodie) and Kim (right, gray t-shirt with Nikon camera around her neck) smiling together inside Indian Echo Caverns, Hummelstown PA, August 2012
Christina and Kim at Indian Echo Caverns, August 2012.
Larry in burger hats at Vidler's in East Aurora with his daughters Christina and Kim, 2013
Three Hil‑burgers in burger hats. Vidler's, East Aurora, 2013.
Larry with Christina at her graduation from the University of Pennsylvania, 2016
Christina's graduation, University of Pennsylvania, 2016.
Larry in a Buffalo cap, smiling, opening an HP box on Christmas Eve at the Cheektowaga family home, 2016
Christmas Eve at the Cheektowaga family home, 2016.
Larry in plaid shirt and Reebok cap at a diner with his daughter Kim, 2016
Diner with Kim, 2016.
Larry on the steps of the U.S. Capitol with his daughter Kim, 2017
On the steps of the U.S. Capitol, with Kim, 2017.
Larry with his daughters Christina and Kim on the Maid of the Mist boat at Niagara Falls in blue ponchos, 2017
Maid of the Mist, Niagara Falls, with Christina and Kim, 2017.
Larry at a Maryland marina restaurant with his daughters Christina and Kim, 2017
Marina, Maryland, with Christina and Kim, 2017.
Larry doing Hilburger family history research at the Buffalo and Erie County Public Library, 2018
Hilburger family history research. Buffalo & Erie County Public Library, 2018.
Larry holding baby Nova outdoors at a Buffalo event, 2022
Holding baby Nova, 2022.
Larry shirtless on the beach at sunset, with baby Nova on a blanket, 2023
Beach with Nova, 2023.
Larry at the Blueberry Treehouse, 2023
At the Blueberry Treehouse, 2023.
Family selfie under a tent. Larry, Christina, Kim, baby Nova and family, 2023
Family, 2023.
Larry holding little Nova at a Nerds Gone Wild concert during Scranton Volunteer Fire Co Community Days, Hamburg NY, August 2023
With Nova at Nerds Gone Wild, Scranton Fire Co Community Days, Hamburg, 2023.
Larry holding his grandson Nova at the Chautauqua County Fair, 2025
With his grandson, Nova, at the Chautauqua County Fair, 2025.